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tommythc
02 January 2008 @ 12:07 pm
Death of 2007  
As the year is drawn to a close, I will take a moment and look back on all of the things that have occured this year to make me who I am today. SHIT. TOO MUCH. I have changed this year more than any other year in the past. I havent changed, that was a lie. I have learned. This year had brought me to the happiest I have ever been, as well as the most depressed. I have had love I cannot explain, and hate that would make anyone go insane. That last sentence rhymed. I think 2008 will be even more influential than 2007, just in that I will be older, and have the ability to think and process things, as well as the ability to learn from them. I fucking hate this whole high school thing. I fucking hate this whole relationship (or lack thereof) thing. Im so excited for things to move forward, but Im so scared for things to change. I guess all I can do is the best I can, right? Thats a stupid cheesy line, But I guess its kind of true. I mean, as long as I look at things with a positive attitude, and keep a sense of  humor about them, I should be okay. right? its got me this far.
 
 
Current Location: Uranus
Current Mood: complacentcomplacent
Current Music: Mouths Like Sidewinder Missles- The Fall Of Troy
 
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tommythc
24 December 2007 @ 11:32 pm
continual hypocrisy.  

I need a shower. I need to clip my finger nails. My hygeine could use some work in general. My grammar and spelling could as well. I need to do better in school. I want some water. I need to put more effort into somethings, and less into others. I need to figure out what I'm doing with myself. I need to start caring. I need to start.I should become a vegan. I should eat a chicken nugget. I need money. I dont need money, I want money. I need to stop making lists of shit thats never going to get done. I need a pack of cigarettes. I need to quit. I need to change. But it wont matter. I need to graduate. I need to be done. I need to forgive. I need to sever ties, and strengthen them. I need to understand more, I should stop caring about understanding. I need to buckle down. I need inspiration for something. i have to start thinking about the process of thinking. I need to LET THINGS GO. Im restless and overtired. Im the kindest person I know. I hate myself. I need to say what I mean. I need someone to mean something more. Im contradictory, but I make more sense than anyone. I need help. Im fucking independent. I need to stop making lists of shit thats never going to get done. I need to delete my page. I need to establish connections. I think I need this, but I have everything anyone could ever ask for. I need to think about college. I need to think about tomorrow. I need to think. I need more art. More ska. More Jazz. Less genre, more feeling. I need to stop making lists of shit thats never going to get done. 

 
 
Current Location: the fucking den
Current Mood: accomplished
Current Music: The proud parents convention held in the E.R.-tn12lly
 
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tommythc
24 December 2007 @ 01:03 am
New Journal  
I forgot the old login info to my old account, thus I was forced to make this one. I bet writing down how I feel will help. Thats a lie. I hate twisted teas, in the worst way. I also hate being single, although i hate having a girlfriend. I hate junior year. But I love vacation. Im the most hypocrytical person on this planet.
 
 
Current Location: the den
Current Mood: blahblah
Current Music: Sledgehammer- The Fall Of Troy
 
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